i'm melting...

i haven't posted since june.  jiminy christmas, that's a long time.  let's suffice to say that the last few months have been filled with incredible panics, fabulous upgrades and most importantly, my great struggle to become an adult.  it's working - slowly. 

mostly, i was inspired to post today because i cannot believe how hot it's been the last two days.  like, melting hot.  i spent today (and yesterday, in fact) working in an a/c-less guest house in west los angeles, answering letters from aspiring writers, reading manuscript submissions and just generally being miserable because i was constantly sweating and uncomfortable.  woe is me.

another terribly sad story is that i'm going to apply to grad school this fall, and hopefully start next fall.  my whole three months out of college have made me very wary of the "real world," as the land of milk and honey and professional, well-paying jobs promised to me after college graduation is really just a raging sea of unanswered sent resumes and retail positions.  i'm working retail, again, at an undisclosed location, which i would disclose if i thought that anyone read this blog and wanted to come in and buy something and boost my sales numbers and lighten the incredible stress load my by-the-hour job has burdened me with - but, alas, i know no one reads this blog and no one wants to come into the store and that i am stuck in retail purgatory until i go to grad school and get even more niche education so that i can graduate in three more years just as confused and disheartened and pretentious as i am now.  only smarter.

blarg.